To My Younger Self

If I had a time machine and could go back to any point in my life for a "do over" when would that be? A couple of pinnacle points definitely come to mind.  High school comes to mind, I was such an awkward teen, but then again weren't we all? I would of course want the mind I have now, and I would try to participate in more things, instead of being that invisible wall flower that the world passed by. I'd have studied harder, tried out for more plays, solos in the choir, maybe even sports. I'd have actually listened to my teachers when they tried to give life advice instead of rolling my eyes and wondering if I could ever be as "old" as they seemed.
I would go back to the day my grandfather passed away and booked a flight home to be with family instead of having to deal with it on my own. (It was a complicated time).
I would go back to the moment before I pushed my brother down the stairs dislocating his shoulder and tell myself not to do it.
So many little things in life I would change, but then I wonder how would it affect the present me?
In reality I wouldn't go back to change anything specifically after all, each moment of my life has shaped the present me. What I would do however is go back and talk to my 25 year old self.  At 25 I still didn't know what I wanted to do with my life (I had ideas, I just didn't know how to get there), didn't think I would ever get married (thanks for that mormon culture), and was barely scraping by in life.
I don't think the 25 year old me would even recognise the now almost 40 (GASP!) year old me.  This is what I would say.....
Don't settle, your better than you think you are, and stop listening to that voice inside your head telling you that you can't do things. You can! One day you will go to England and get a masters degree, you will make friends who become sisters from all over the world.  One day you will be married and living in London, one day your career will take off.  Yes there are going to be bumps along the way and heartache that you must endure, but these things will make you stronger.  Take time now and spend it with family, especially your grandparents one day they will be gone and you will miss them. Don't worry so much about taking care of everyone else, its ok to sometimes be a little selfish and want something for yourself.  Get healthy now! Don't make me do it when I'm almost 40.  Eat more veg and less pizza and for the love of all that is holy stop eating so many gummy bears! Enjoy life, laugh when you can, cry when your sad, be happy.  Life has a lot to offer but only if you reach out and grab it, don't let it pass you by.